A call to Freedom

I am here Jesus. I am ready to listen. I am ready to seek you fully, to surrender all, consider it all as loss, just to know you for even one day. I know you are here Jesus, in this still quiet moment, in the early morning hours, before the day begins, you called me out of sleep into the stillness, though my mind races, and my thoughts start to gather, I know in my heart it is you who I need to seek, to you alone must I yield, I have fought for so long against you at times, and I am ashamed to own that truth, but I know that in my weakness and brokenness you refused to abandon me, even though you alone have truly seen me, you alone have truly known me, with all my failures and mistakes, but yet you chose to still die for me, to leave your throne on high to suffer for me, to be broken and beat and crucified for me, oh sweet Grace, to make a way to finally set me free, and in this moment I know that - yo estoy libre en Jesuchristo, but that gift of freedom paid for by Your blood requires an answer, a response that I have NEVER truly been willing to give in full, oh this body of sin and death, always holding onto a part of the darkness, or even the whole of it, choosing the gallows over Your altars, choosing my flesh over Your spirit, choosing death over life, but tonight in the stillness you call me again, you have never stopped calling, never stopped pursuing, not in force, but in quiet determined love, undeserved, unwarranted, unwavering…agape love, the love only a Father could give His child, Oh My God and my Savior, guard my heart, protect me from the wicked and evil who desires and seeks my soul, who pursues, with force, and false power, that I alone give, pour out your Holy Spirit upon me so that I may stand strong, so that I may withstand, so that I may fight against the darkness and sin that so easily entangles, OH SWEET FREEDOM… OH SWEET GRACE…OH MY LORD AND MY GOD… this I pray… Let my heart not be troubled, help me take hold of your promises, guard my heart with Your Word…teach me to stand only upon You - My Rock and My Salvation - My strong tower of defense - By the power of your Holy Spirit, fill me so that I may be poured out for you, like a sweet drink offering, let me become a sweet aroma that rises to your heavenly throne, do not look upon my past offenses, do not cast me from your presence again, but instead restore to me the JOY of Your salvation, the God in whom I hope and trust, the Alpha and the Omega, The beginning and The end, you are The Way - The Truth - The Life… and in this moment I surrender all…In this moment I lay it all down for You…I consider it all a loss so that I may know you again, My heart beats once again for you, my every breath if Yours alone. Thank you for breathing new life into a dead man’s bones…in the stillness You are here, In the quiet you called me out…

----- shared by our Board President and Co-Founder, Brad Wentz, while serving in Honduras with our DBH team last week